A couple of people shared an article on my Facebook feed yesterday called “12 struggles of having an outgoing personality but an anxious mind.”
It kicked off by saying:
“Outgoing people with anxious minds – or minds that overthink – tend to feel anxiety the most intensely, often because we don’t talk about it. And by “often” I mean never.
“Our anxiety is a contrast to our big, bold personalities. Strangers would never guess it. We never know when to fight or flight, and our self-angst is maxed out. We are often the life of the party but can also be mind-numbingly introspective, questioning everything.”
OK, well I kind of fall down on the never talking about it bit … but the rest of the article had me nodding with recognition at almost every point.
But then a rather odd thought crossed my mind: I didn’t think any of it was unusual. I thought it was completely normal behaviour. I actually commented on the Mummy Haze’s Facebook page: “You mean everyone isn’t like this?”
And then my brain wobbled at the notion that perhaps everyone wasn’t like that.
It kinda messed with my head to think there are people out there who don’t “wake up in the morning and of course, we are over-thinking everything – Ahhh what did I say to that one person that I’d rather die than act like an idiot in front of? Did I talk too much? And what did they mean by ‘I’ll see you soon?’ What does ‘soon’ even mean? Like soon soon? Or ‘soon’?”
How do they DO that? Gawd it must be peaceful in their heads.
So, give it to me straight …
Are you the person described in the article? Totally? A little bit? Not at all?
Song of the day: Pat Benetar “Anxiety”