Soaking it up

I am soaking too much up.

Well, it was a good soaking late yesterday afternoon when I finally went for a swim at Bilgola. It has been a long time between dips due to life, weather and my back injury.

But I went to Brian the physio at lunchtime and he said my disc inflammation was receding. I still have to be careful and I’m not allowed to do anything more strenuous than strolling and light stretches for the next few weeks.

Fortunately, the surf was calm and I stayed in the shallows and had a lovely splash. Then I left DD at the beach for a Warrior workout session with his mates and went back to his place to prep steak and veg for dinner.

It was my second visit to Bilgola in the same day, as we also headed there for coffee at sunrise with the doggos.

As for the not so good stuff I’m soaking up, the world feels like such a scary place right now and I am drowning in negative news headlines.

On top of that, I know many people who are going through tough times at the moment.

I feel panicked and distressed by their pain and the fact there’s not much I can do to help, other than be there for them.

Aside from that, work is FULL ON as usual, with far too many competing demands. I feel like a juggler with 12 balls in the air at once.

I’ve also been putting off reading my Will and associated documents that the solicitor has prepared for me to sign today.

I literally can’t seem to focus on the words.

Aside from a physical Will there is an “emotional will” to sign, which is my wishes as opposed to stuff that will be legally binding. I had never even heard of an emotional Will until yesterday.

There are also clauses like who decides the fate of the dogs and what happens to my social media accounts and then what poems I want read at my memorial or funeral (I even have to tick a box for what type of ceremony I want).

There is sooooo much funeral stuff in the Will! Honestly, I do not care about my funeral at all. Just do it as cheaply as possible and remember me fondly.

As for remedying how soaked I am feeling … there’s not much to be done other than reminding myself about all the good stuff in my life.

And reciting the Serenity Prayer: “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference.”

Song of the day: The Beatles “Let it be”