You know how I delivered that holier than thou blog last week about it being time to stop making the poor-separated-me excuses and take control of my life, clean up my act, all that jazz.
Well that was total shite. I don’t have time to clean up my act.
I’m too bloody busy.
I got a few sighs from mums on the weekend when I complained I wasn’t getting Monday night off from parenting because my ex had something on and asked if I could have the kids (he has them Sunday, Monday and Wednesday each week).
“I wish I got a night off,” they muttered.
So maybe I shouldn’t be complaining because I usually get three “nights off” each week.
Sounds cushy, but generally life feels like a bit of a hard slog, especially after a month-long cold that’s still lingering.
I lost most of last weekend to the State Skipping Championships, so the house is an absolute tip. I’m trying to get my head around my new job. My children have multiple activities most mornings and afternoons of the week. I like to see my boyf once or twice a week, who lives 45 minutes away. There’s grocery shopping, there are a terrifying number of bills to pay, there’s a dodgy computer to keep running, there’s dinner to cook, there are school lunches to make, there’s the desire to exercise occasionally and have some semblance of a social life …
I’m not sure what the solution is, other than winning the lottery.
I would sooooooo love to win the lottery and get a cleaner, some decent furniture and a garden that doesn’t look like it belongs to a derelict house … OK, and a house that doesn’t look derelict.
Single motherhood means every part of running a household and paying the bills is my sole responsibility.
It’s exhausting and stressful and I hate having to do it all on my own.
So, while I know I need to clean up my act, actually doing it is going to be much harder than just writing the words and it magically happening.
I’ll get there, eventually. In the meantime, forgive me while I prioritize my family and fun over my waist measurement and grimy house.
Song of the day: Alicia Keys “Superwoman”