I have been keeping secrets from you. And I probably should still.
It’s so unseemly to air dirty laundry. But, at the same time, how can I NOT speak from the heart and keep writing this blog?
Two years ago, when HouseGoesHome started, I was a bit broken. Some terrible stuff happened in my workplace that savaged my soul.
What I failed to notice during that bleak, heart-palpitating period was that my marriage was broken too.
It struggled on for another two years, but a chasm had opened that couldn’t be closed.
My husband moves out today. We’ve separated.
We’ve been trying to make things work for the past six months, but have failed spectacularly.
He got the keys to his new apartment on Valentine’s Day. Romantic, huh?
In hindsight, it wasn’t the best timing to launch the HouseGoesHome Facebook page just two days before my husband announced he was leaving. It suddenly makes everything so much more public, not to mention the fact that my heart hasn’t been entirely up to the task over the past week.
Which circles back to why I’m telling the world.
And whether the blog carries any of the blame.
He DID think I became a little too obsessed with blogging after those disastrous events in 2011. But it gave my life an anchor, it provided a centre and a purpose to the days. It also opened new career doors, like the year I spent editing iVillage.
I love writing from my heart into my virtual diary. The words pour out, they soothe me.
But I’m not sure the blog will be enough now. I need something else. Something that gets me out there again (and pay a few bills at the same time).
Suggestions welcome … got any?
housegoeshome 
Thinking of u today… hope it goes as smoothly as possible… ❤
Thx Megz – the rain is appropriately pelting down
beautiful day in newy tho… like always… maybe thats a sign…
Well maybe the mattresses his sister is bringing down from Newie won’t get so wet after all!
Sad to hear this news Alana, but life will regain its balance for all of you in time. X
Thank you Susie.
So sorry to hear Alana, wishing you loads and loads of strength.
Thank you Janine.
Oh Alana, I have no advice, just lots of love. And a suggestion you come hang out with me one weekend xx
I would love that.
Sorry to hear this news Alana. Best wishes and we clearly need to have a quiet drink soon. AM xxxx
That sounds great Anne Marie
Oh gosh, sorry to hear this news Alana. I have no suggestions whatsoever, but wish you the strength you need to ride out yet another big change.
Thank you Lara. I will need it!
Thinking of you Alana. Tough times. Love to you and your girls. xx
Thank you Angela. Yes, they are. But I’m tough too!
Very sorry to hear that. All the best to all of you
Thanks Sally.
I’m just a blog lurker fan of yours…but can I offer a simple one…just bake some of your fab biscuits..I always come searching your blog for recipes. I know this is a bit flippant…but hey…sometimes a biscuit helps!
I must get back to the baking now I’m a SAHM again. My foodie posts have been few and far between. Made some awesome banana bread muffins yesterday with the frozen bananas that wouldn’t fit in my new fridge (lose a husband, gain a fridge)
You’re made of super-strong stuff Alana – always have been. Love to you and your girls – and hope to catch up with you and Sam for a drink soon. xx
That will be lovely Eugenie. Thx for the message
Oh, Alana, that is absolutely shit. I’m really so sorry x
Yes, it is, isn’t it? Thanks for the message.
Alana, Hi, I am really sorry that you are going through this…thank you for blogging about it – not always easy I know. But I promise you, time will heal and as SusieP said life will regain its balance for you in time. My marriage ended four years ago – change is always unsettling but then it just becomes the new normal and there are new roads to explore! I know you will be ok. I hope you keep blogging! Take care.x
I’m looking forward to exploring new roads. And hopefully they will include blogging.
What can I say that others haven’t already said?
Suffice it to say, in your own words, you’re “a tough old bird” and you will survive…just like Henny Penny!
And do keep blogging, please!
I may be powerless to stop blogging: am an addict.
All I can say is…it’s all gonna be okay 🙂 Life is a roller coaster journey unfortunately. Thirteen years ago I was in the same boat and now I’ve never been happier (and I was an old fatigued chook when it happened!). Keep your chin up pretty girl x
You can’t have been a fatigued old chook when it happened! But it gives me hope that you’ve never been happier.
I am just catching up with you news, as we have a terrible sickness bug here in the UK. No words of wisdom, but Happy is good. You are a lovely lady and deserve happiness where you can find it.
Oh Jen, I hope you feel better soon. Hope I feel better soon too … I was in a bit of a bad place when I met you, but it was still fun!
ahhh Alana … I’m just catching up on your news. Been avoiding all things bloggy mostly because I’ve realised I miss blogging. Need to find a new reason. Was so surprised to read about you and Husband. And so appreciate your honesty. There is far too much pretense around. You truly do deserve happiness, and I feel it within you, which is where you’ll find it. Not meaning to sound new agey and stuff, but you know what I mean. Hang in there xx