I don’t like Mondays (anymore)


Sundays no longer rock my world either.

My house is empty. My kids are gone. They’re off having fun with their dad somewhere. Without me.

I should use the time productively – clean the house, take up a hobby. But instead I drift around with a tight knot of sadness in my chest.

I’m not completely inert, I make sure my custody-free days are punctuated with people.  A friend popped over for a cup of tea yesterday morning. I went to the gym yesterday afternoon. I went out for a drink with another friend last night.

But it’s not enough.

I still can’t believe this has happened. HOW CAN THIS HAVE HAPPENED?

I was 23 when I met ex-Husband. Now I’m 46.

I’m scared.

What happens next?

PS Now it’s over to Bob for my tune of the day …

I don’t like Mondays
Tell me why
I don’t like Mondays
Tell me why 
I don’t like Mondays
I wanna shoo-oo-woo-woo-woo-oot the whole day down


7 thoughts on “I don’t like Mondays (anymore)

  1. It sucks arse and then you find something to do that takes your mind off it, even briefly. Then you’ll be able to do it without feeling shitty about enjoying it, and then it’ll become something you enjoy doing for its sake, instead of as a kind of stopgap. It WILL happen, but never as quick as you want it to.

    I started playing taiko for my version of this, and it became a big thing. You’ll know what it is when you find it. What’ve you always wanted to try?

  2. couple of suggestions. when i was diagnosed with depression my doctor advised lots of exercise. harry chapin in one of his between songs monologues talks about the difference between “good” tired and bad tired. good tired comes from exercise and mental engagement so gym is good. bad tired is lethargy caused by disengagement. the second is to get yourself involved. do a course. volunteer. enrol in a sculpture course. whatever you always wanted to do but never got round to it. Finally being scared is natural. don’t let it phase you. embrace it and challenge it. Lots of good things about your life not the least being your kids and family and friends. just thought of this. be a volunteer research assistant for Kathleen’s appeal. BTW if i have presumed too much in writing this just put it in the trash folder and it never happened. 🙂 take care

    • Thanks so much. I am exercising like a fiend – just back from a bush walk. And going for lots of job interviews as I need one that pays money now I’m a single mum.

  3. I am late to this separation news. So shocked! So sad. Huge hugs. Now is awful for you, but you WILL learn to like your free time. Just not for a while.

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